Why me?!?

I swear that I am perpetually cursed to be alone in my meager existence. Either I like someone and she is not into me, or someone likes me and I am not into them (which mainly consists of the psychos). This is very confusing. Why can't I find a semi-normal person to date rather than having to continue to take a swing at things. I am 25 years old, and I am not going to get any younger. Next thing I know, I will be 80 and still single (just me and my books). My life is full of voids that I can never seem to fill, and yet instead of finding the means to fill them I find even more voids. My life seems to be going nowhere fast. The only real drive I have is trying to make everyone else happy, even at my own expense. Because, it is the only real thing that I am good at. It is just exhausting. I don't know how much more I will be able to take before I finally burn out. I just want to be happy, but I guess that it is just too much to ask. I am going to have to deal with misery that the universe has decided to give me.

A long awaited update........

I thought that I would update while I wait for my mother's surgery to be completed. Surgery? I know that is what you are thinking, but I should let you know about everything that has occurred thus far.

Last Saturday, I received a phone call from my mother telling me that my grandfather had passed away. This threw me for a tizzy, since I was driving on the interstate at the time she called. I really didn't know how to react at this current loss. My grandfather was a good man, and I know that he is in a better place with my grandmother who passed away some years earlier.

During that time, my brother and uncle decided that they were going to come over and try to help my dad. I was coming down so I could help out as well. My dad and uncle have been trying to one up each other during the whole event, which meant that my brother and I were stuck doing all of the actual work of taking care of matters involving my grandfather's possessions.

It was a difficult thing to go through all of that stuff that had been collected in the house. I know that my brother was feeling the pressure, just as I was. But, I guess that things will improve shortly. I hope.

To answer the question about surgery, my mother fractured her wrist about a week ago and is having surgery to have it set properly. Mind you, she has been fairly difficult during that time. I have been the one helping her out most of the time I have been down because of the death of my grandfather. It has been hard. But, I just have to roll with the punches I guess.

It is a bit cold here, as is the rest of the US at this moment.

I will let you all go until next time.

Oh by the way, I have finished the draft to my book and hope to have it sent off within the next couple of months.